Lifes Fate

Life is full of twist and turns fate throwing that occasional curve ball keeping us on our toes!  Unfortunately I've had too many curve balls thrown my way here of late. Decisions to be made to impact our course of life, faith tested to the utmost extent!  All decisions come with consequences and life altering impacts.  Does God test our faith?  Sometimes.  Does the devil test our faith?  ALL the time!  Who are we to lean on?  In Proverbs it says lean not on our own understanding. Amen, we will never truly understand the whys, just that God know what he's doing, and it's for our best in the end! We are to love one another no matter the trespasses against us. Is that easy to do? NO, but it is not impossible. See even when it comes to family love them no matter the trespasses just walk away if they bring you away from God.  God is our Rock our Salvation and whom we are to ALWAYS to depend upon!  God is good all the time, life in this corrupt world isn't. Stand with those who love us ands need us, depart from those that destroy our witness! Family isn't always blood but those that we know stand with us and not against us in the Lord.  We also have the family that stand with us through thick and thin.  Take both these individuals blood and blood through Christ and treasure them and cling to them in troubled times.  Always love they neighbor but don't always break bread with them. Stay firm on the path with God he will never leave nor forsake you.  Pray for thins enemy no matter how hard, love and pray God's conviction upon their heart,  is it always easy? no, but just remember this, would you wish your worst trial upon anybody, even thins enemy?  NO. Love is in thine heart to be given to all!  Whether through congregation and gathering among one another, or simply by praying for those in need!!!!!  I love my family and friends but sometimes the cost of being with certain individuals is not worth the loss of our witness!!!!!  Oh how I wish things were different, oh how I wish I had the unconditional love of all, but that is NOT possible and God's will shall be done no matter the hurt and cost.  God NEVER said it would be easy, only that it would be worth it after all!!!!!  I HAVE A HEAVENLY HOME AWAITING,  and loved ones to see!  My precious Emma Grace was taken far too Soon, just as my grandfather, and father-in-law.  See their rejoicing in what we can't even fathom in this evil world, but soon someday we'll be reunited to rejoice for an eternity together forever!!! This life has drug and beaten me down, sometimes I don't even know who I truly am.  All I know is I have two kids here in this madness and a Godley husband who helps me make it through all the craziness and trials.  I look at all my children and know unconditionally they are my unconditional love and reason for struggling through this crazy world.  I will NEVER understand how a parent can turn away their own children, their own flesh and blood, I loved them before I had them and knew I would risk all to get them here and love them!!!!!  When you have a child taken home WAY too soon, your life changes FOREVER, to never be complete again until the day you are reunited in that heavenly home.  I cherish my children ALL three, they never leave your heart, just an emptiness that will never be filled when they are called home too soon.  AAs for the blessing of time with my other two children, enjoy each moment, treasure every hug and kiss because they are your life now and your work will never be done!!!!!  Only when they are both lead to God will you have a little peace knowing their life will be eternal.  They will never leave your worry and heart no matter how big they grow.  This I struggle with in my own life, the troubles and trials of not having that unconditional love from the blood that bore you and can so easily toss you away without so much even a backward glance or regret.  When you become a parent you set yourself aside from the first breath of life until God decides other wishes!!!!!  See one day I can only hope that my flesh and blood that has tossed me aside will come to know peace through the Lord and eternal Life.  I Love You, I just have to love you from afar.  My prayer is conviction and repentance upon your heart for eternal greatness, just as I struggle for the same.  I love you, just from afar!!!!!